Monday, January 31, 2005

beautiful soul;
poots
i was PMS-ing todayy
yeshh..
real baddd
i knOw i pissed a few ppl off
woots
dunno what happened to me in the morninggg
just stood outside 1`11 and fa dai
didn't feel like tokin
blah blahh blahh
was thinkingg bout some stuffs
bleaghsss
den until lunch
realli couldn't tahan liaoo
attitude ppl
ok.. i know i'm in faultt
yeshh
budden was likee
-arrrggg-
realli sad and stuffs
disappointed+angry
january ending leee
but i'm still not adaptingg
super dependent on 3`o6 peeps
yahh.. like windspear dey all dere right?
and i still can't like fit into 3`o4
so sometimes when i dun get to see windspear during breaks
i end up tagging with some other grps
bleahsss
u may say i'm weird of wadevaaa
but i dun like the feelinggg
i dun like the feeling of me being so dependent on other ppl
i dun like the feeling of me like always go find them
i dun like myself for being so selfish and insistent that they spend their breaks with me
i dun like the way why things have changed
i dun like the way i expect so much from them coz they mean alot to me
i dun like the way i feel so loner in class
i dun like the way to see how she is so much happier than what we used to be
i dun like the times when i have to act as if i realli fit in well
act as if i seem happier when i'm not
i dun feel belongged to anywheree now
i dun like the feeling of being so sad but i can't cry it out or tok to any damn freaking person
coz i dun wanna them to think i'm irritatingx10000000
coz i know they will think differently from me
-
bleaghss
yahh
concludingg.. i dun like myself for every damn sickening thing i do coz i know its irritating..
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had some lame joke with jas
charcol + firestarterr
she ownself shy lahh
dun wanna admit to being charcol's wifee
lols

aftr school went SAC with nickO and aun
helped to pack up and stuffs
and we moved the furnitures around
think it looks nicer noww
teeheee
and the both of them were super siccck lahh
muahaha
made me tramutized
lols
yahh..
was irritating them with some sickening stuffs
bwahh
just let me talk more bout something which i know i'll never get
yeahh
we spoiled the key's keychain
used scotchtape to tape back
lols
den waited for baoling.. went clem and homeeee

poOots
i dun feel like doing homeeworkk
maths test tml
blah blahhh

pray that tml would be a better and nicer dayy

one last cry